no posts in months

ill post more stuff when more people starts to follow me..

my hero and my haircut.

so i was browsing through MTV.co.uk i was watching Gossip Girl actress Taylor Momsen's band "The Pretty Reckless" i was watching their acoustic performances... and i was like " i wonder what shows do they have in UK?" i saw this one show titled MTV BANG and i was watching previews of the show... i was gazing at the host because he looked familiar... turned out he is a model turned host and his name is ASH STYMEST.. according to google... wikipidea particularly ;P



Ash Stymest (full name: Ashley Stymest) is a male model born in England on 31 July 1991.

He was brought up in Coney Hall and attended Ravens Wood School, in Bromley, South East London. His modeling career started when he was scouted in 2008 when he was 17 years old. That year he was signed with Models 1 and was recruited by Hedi Slimane for Slimane's personal work. His debut was in 2008 on the cover of Japanese Vogue Hommes, photographed by Slimane.

While his modeling career was still young, he appeared in many notable magazines, including several issues of Italian and Russian Vogue. He has also opened the Spring 2009 Balenciaga show in Paris in October 2008, a notable achievement considering his late start in modeling[1].

He is in the Top 50 Male Models on models.com, ranked as #28[2].

It was announced March 2010 that Ash is presenting a show on MTV UK called MTV Bang[3], while there is talk that Ash is no longer with his modeling agency[4].

Ash is also an avid drummer and skateboarder. He has dated fashion model Eliza Cummings.

MOVING ON... why does he look so familiar? and it popped in my head! oh yeah he was the inspiration for my new hair style!


its a photo from my phone so im sorry if the pic is kinda shitty?


ash stymest is a real bomb! i would love him to be my friend! and yes he is now one of my heroes!

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its not easy.

so today on my way to our public library I was wearing a bright pink shirt, harem pants, colorful boat shoes and i was carrying a little leather pouch. i never knew my outfit was so outlandish to other people it offended them? As i was walking through the parking lot to the library, i was stopped by 5-6 big black men smoking marijuana. they looked so scary! They asked me to stop and talk to them. I didn't want to... but they insisted that i stop and talk to them. one of them asked why i was carrying a purse. i said its a pouch. Then one of them asked me "yow what are you? you homo?" i never think twice about my sexuality and who i am. i have got nothing to hide. and i said "Yes I am." After my response they gawked at me and told me not to pass by that part of the parking lot anymore. or else they would beat me up! So yeah... i was discriminated and threatened at the same time! And never have i felt so scared and mad at the same time. scared they would beat me to death when we cross paths again and mad because i never did anyone wrong! i never did anything to those guys? Now every time i see a black men dressed like 2pac my heart starts to beat so fast its like going to explode! now i just have a questions for my self.

what would i do when i see them again?